It’s amazing knowing how our kids grow up. The pureness of their thoughts many times is beyond our awareness. Their understandings of things around them are sometimes create one touching idea, that we would never thought that they will do.
Day by day I do try to give examples in life which are easy for Anabel to understand. Deep inside I want her to understand and manage her heart and mind into a better way. Though I’m not forcing her to accept all lessons but more like let her sees and feels through action in our daily lives because I believe that children have their own way in sharpening the instruments of their body and mind.
Like this past two weeks, she kept asking me how is Katie is doing (Katie is my friend’s daughter who lives in London) since I told her that Katie was going to have an operation (she has an illness and need to take an operation).
I know that the thought keep staying in her mind until a night before we sent a wishing well card through my e-mail.
It started when I asked her about thing she wants to do to make her friend be happy even though she is sick. She answered by saying that it would be nice if she could send a picture for Katie and writes some words. We worked on the picture until late because I’m not very good either in using Photoshop. It wasn’t finished that night but she had asked my help to finished it because she must be in bed.
Thing that more surprising was the day after, it was evening when I told her that her uncle UK (Katie’s Dad ) had replied the email and they love the picture we sent. Then she came up again with another idea, she asked me whether it is possible to send Katie a doll. I was so touched by her innocence words; I never thought that she had such a big attention to someone. And I just answered that it might be possible to do it….. Then I could see her big smile.
I always appreciate smile and nice words then the blessed is around. Without i realize my kid has growing and had amazed me and being beside and stand by her in such a precious moment is something that I won’t trade with anything.
Uncle UK, you are one lucky father for having a strong and beautiful daughter like Katie…
Time flies and things changed, doesn’t matter whether we like it or not but we have to face it still. Grateful for what we’ve got even though not all as we expected to be but that just the way God teaches us on how we could react on those. There is always a losing part in each life that one is trying to cope. Sometimes it seemed too complicated to be understood and the feeling of just don’t want to face it may occurs. Many times we escaped myself from it, when heart full of sadness remembering those. Sometimes the feeling of just want to do something which we couldn’t do kind of frustrating… normally we just can’t help it. Usually we do activities to help our self relieved the feel. Like I’m doing now….
Though from outside people may see us as a strong happy person but when we come into the situation above, it feel like we’re too fragile in facing life…. Things that should keep us survive is that the goal and some precious things we consider in our life that will keep us aware along our way. I believe every time we are back to the understanding of every human being has their own duty in this life; we shall find some strength to keep going.
I know that we were created for one meaning. I’m sure that each of us has something that finally brings us into life we have now. All things in the past, things we do now, what we become and what we want to do next have relation one to each other. Just be sure that we walk on the right track, though mistakes sometimes occur on the way consider those as lessons to learn.
Now, let’s completing our future, do things we should do at the moment. I believe that each of us have problems with different type and character and it would be worth if we could find the point of it. Keep trying and learning with the support of family and all friends. They are important elements in our life.
You are not alone my friend ...
Being favorite teacher among my students is not something that I reach for nor my intention. I consider that as another gift I’m grateful with. The relation I’ve been built with not only my students but also their parents has resulted something wonderful. During my time of teaching I always try to create condition which is possible for me and my students to have fun and worth time. I may say that I could make it in almost time, though some are not.Those things above shall be the frame of my story this time, because I’m not going to tell about what I’m doing with my students but more like thing I just did have the connection and the background of it.
This afternoon one of my student’s Mom gave me some gifts (kinds of food and a Mokena; outfit clothes for doing sholat/pray for Muslim woman). I brought those things home and the one that attracted my attention was the Mokena, usually people give that kind of thing just a day or two before “Idul Fitri” (one of big holiday for Muslims) with intention of giving ‘new’ clothes for the day. But this woman gave me ‘Mokena’ on the third day of fasting month, I was kind of thinking of the sincerity of the woman because instead of waiting for ‘Idul Fitri, she decided to give me on early fasting month.
I was happy when I opened it. It is a fine cotton fabric with simple but elegant embroidery, I love it very much. This might be the best I ever had, but suddenly another idea crossed on mind. The sincerity of the woman had made me think of the same thing to another person.
Just two doors next to my house, live an old woman. She lives alone, everyday she sells some cooked food to be sold to make her living. Actually she’s got 3 children but their condition also not helping much so she decided to make her own living so that she doesn’t have to bother her children…. She’s quite tough old woman, in the uncertainty of her condition she maintain struggle…
I went to her house this evening and gave her some of the food that I just got….then backed home. The Mokena was still lying on the edge of my bed and it’s kind of distracting me…. Like something attract me…. Sounds from my heart told me to do something with that. I was still waiting for like an hour when finally I understood what my heart just talked.
I hurry back to the old woman’s house and gave her the Mokena. I said that it would be nice for her wearing the Mokena during sholat tarawih (kind of night pray do in the mosque together for a month) in Ramadhan. She was very surprised and I could see the happiness and touchiness at the same time. Guess those feeling are also surrounded me. I could feel it into the deepest part of my heart … again God had let me experience such a beautiful moment for times.
This would be the first day that Anabel not staying home. Yesterday morning, after she joined me to the ‘the free English course’ she decided to stay over in my friend’s house and had a sleeping overnight. The house is 1 hour far from my house. My friend’s daughter is actually one of Anabel’s favorite big sister friend, they could get along well. Since today we have 3 days holiday, I finally had to be agreed letting her stayed there. It is quiet surprising me that she managed things very well without having mommy around and for me; it is new experience spending one night without her present at home.
I realize that this is only one little start of the changing I will have next; my daughter is growing into a brave little girl and the nicest thing that she able to make her own decision and has responsibility of it. Though I’m very happy of her big step but still the other side, is I don’t like the idea of being apart from her even only for one night. My husband keeps convincing me that this only a start, and says that there would be lots of things changed during our journey without we realize it.
Guess that… I also have to be growing myself. Realizing and aware of things around me which may change suddenly. One thing that I learn is that I’m turning into ‘real Mom’ part, a part where I am required to be more mature than before and also coped with other’s decision.
Have a nice sleeping over night with kakak Hany, Anabel…..
Loves
Mommy
